“When Nothing Is Certain …”
I have to credit today’s post to Luna. If you haven’t been keeping up, she has had some potentially wonderful news! A birth mother is very interested in having Luna & her sweetie become parents for the unborn little one. Luna is aware that things could still change – there are 5 months still to go before the baby is due – but it does sound so hopeful. I can’t tell you how happy this news was to hear!
As for me – today was a rather challenging day … I have been making tons of job applications in the past few days (well, maybe a dozen) and had a phone call to discover that certain conditions are not as favourable as I had hoped. Then, I got a speeding ticket. There’s also the fact that DH’s one year “anniversary” of being unemployed is fast approaching. Altogether, not the most cheerful day!
Then I clicked over to Luna’s blog to find the following quote:
“When nothing is certain, everything is possible.”
It did help to give me room to breathe. This is how I’ve been feeling most of the time about our job situation – that there are so many possibilities. It’s exciting in a way, because we just don’t know what path we will take! But then there are days when I feel we are stuck here always, that we will never find a path to move forward on. I am tired of being in suspended animation. It would be great to make plans again, to engage in life again … oh, and yes, to be making money again!
It is odd how familiar these thoughts are. A version of the same feeling was with me during our years of IF. Personally, I would say IF was more wrenching and emotional and the hardest experience I’ve had to go through. For DH, the job situation might claim “top spot” – an interesting difference between men & women, or between just our two characters, I don’t know.
Anyway, I am going to choose (or try to choose) to stay in the land of the possible versus the land of the it’s-never-going-to-change. Right after I pour myself a nice glass of red wine, that is.
luna said,
January 8, 2009 at 11:56 pm
thanks so much for the shout-out! I’m glad that helped you too. easier to say than to remember and embrace, for sure. a daily challenge for me.
wishing you all the best.
~luna
loribeth said,
January 9, 2009 at 10:54 am
Sorry to hear you are still in limbo, jobwise. I thought Luna’s quote was amazing too. Possibility is wonderful, but sometimes a little certainty is helpful too, lol. Hang in there!
Amy said,
January 13, 2009 at 5:29 pm
I favor the line, “Freedom’s just another word for nothing left to lose.” Same general idea, different words.
There’s ALWAYS something left to lose, of course, but I like the idea.
Example:
Leaving this dumb house behind, continuing to pay on it, and renting something in Denver. Who knows what’s ahead? But it’s kind of freeing in its own way.
I think I’ll add Luna’s motto, too.
A Soldier's Girl said,
January 24, 2009 at 5:17 pm
Ugh…when it rains it pours right? I love your outlook however…and I do believe that you have to stay positive! I will say many prayers for your family….:)