“When Nothing Is Certain …”

I have to credit today’s post to Luna.  If you haven’t been keeping up, she has had some potentially wonderful news!  A birth mother is very interested in having Luna & her sweetie become parents for the unborn little one.  Luna is aware that things could still change – there are 5 months still to go before the baby is due – but it does sound so hopeful.  I can’t tell you how happy this news was to hear!

As for me – today was a rather challenging day … I have been making tons of job applications in the past few days (well, maybe a dozen) and had a phone call to discover that certain conditions are not as favourable as I had hoped.  Then, I got a speeding ticket.  There’s also the fact that DH’s one year “anniversary” of being unemployed is fast approaching.  Altogether, not the most cheerful day!

Then I clicked over to Luna’s blog to find the following quote:

 “When nothing is certain, everything is possible.”

It did help to give me room to breathe.  This is how I’ve been feeling most of the time about our job situation – that there are so many possibilities.  It’s exciting in a way, because we just don’t know what path we will take!  But then there are days when I feel we are stuck here always, that we will never find a path to move forward on.  I am tired of being in suspended animation.  It would be great to make plans again, to engage in life again … oh, and yes, to be making money again!

It is odd how familiar these thoughts are.  A version of the same feeling was with me during our years of IF.  Personally, I would say IF was more wrenching and emotional and the hardest experience I’ve had to go through.  For DH, the job situation might claim “top spot” – an interesting difference between men & women, or between just our two characters, I don’t know.

Anyway, I am going to choose (or try to choose) to stay in the land of the possible versus the land of the it’s-never-going-to-change.  Right after I pour myself a nice glass of red wine, that is.