I have to credit today’s post to Luna. If you haven’t been keeping up, she has had some potentially wonderful news! A birth mother is very interested in having Luna & her sweetie become parents for the unborn little one. Luna is aware that things could still change – there are 5 months still to go before the baby is due – but it does sound so hopeful. I can’t tell you how happy this news was to hear!
As for me – today was a rather challenging day … I have been making tons of job applications in the past few days (well, maybe a dozen) and had a phone call to discover that certain conditions are not as favourable as I had hoped. Then, I got a speeding ticket. There’s also the fact that DH’s one year “anniversary” of being unemployed is fast approaching. Altogether, not the most cheerful day!
Then I clicked over to Luna’s blog to find the following quote:
“When nothing is certain, everything is possible.”
It did help to give me room to breathe. This is how I’ve been feeling most of the time about our job situation – that there are so many possibilities. It’s exciting in a way, because we just don’t know what path we will take! But then there are days when I feel we are stuck here always, that we will never find a path to move forward on. I am tired of being in suspended animation. It would be great to make plans again, to engage in life again … oh, and yes, to be making money again!
It is odd how familiar these thoughts are. A version of the same feeling was with me during our years of IF. Personally, I would say IF was more wrenching and emotional and the hardest experience I’ve had to go through. For DH, the job situation might claim “top spot” – an interesting difference between men & women, or between just our two characters, I don’t know.
Anyway, I am going to choose (or try to choose) to stay in the land of the possible versus the land of the it’s-never-going-to-change. Right after I pour myself a nice glass of red wine, that is.