“When Nothing Is Certain …”

I have to credit today’s post to Luna.  If you haven’t been keeping up, she has had some potentially wonderful news!  A birth mother is very interested in having Luna & her sweetie become parents for the unborn little one.  Luna is aware that things could still change – there are 5 months still to go before the baby is due – but it does sound so hopeful.  I can’t tell you how happy this news was to hear!

As for me – today was a rather challenging day … I have been making tons of job applications in the past few days (well, maybe a dozen) and had a phone call to discover that certain conditions are not as favourable as I had hoped.  Then, I got a speeding ticket.  There’s also the fact that DH’s one year “anniversary” of being unemployed is fast approaching.  Altogether, not the most cheerful day!

Then I clicked over to Luna’s blog to find the following quote:

 “When nothing is certain, everything is possible.”

It did help to give me room to breathe.  This is how I’ve been feeling most of the time about our job situation – that there are so many possibilities.  It’s exciting in a way, because we just don’t know what path we will take!  But then there are days when I feel we are stuck here always, that we will never find a path to move forward on.  I am tired of being in suspended animation.  It would be great to make plans again, to engage in life again … oh, and yes, to be making money again!

It is odd how familiar these thoughts are.  A version of the same feeling was with me during our years of IF.  Personally, I would say IF was more wrenching and emotional and the hardest experience I’ve had to go through.  For DH, the job situation might claim “top spot” – an interesting difference between men & women, or between just our two characters, I don’t know.

Anyway, I am going to choose (or try to choose) to stay in the land of the possible versus the land of the it’s-never-going-to-change.  Right after I pour myself a nice glass of red wine, that is.


4 thoughts on ““When Nothing Is Certain …”

  1. luna says:

    thanks so much for the shout-out! I’m glad that helped you too. easier to say than to remember and embrace, for sure. a daily challenge for me.
    wishing you all the best.

  2. loribeth says:

    Sorry to hear you are still in limbo, jobwise. I thought Luna’s quote was amazing too. Possibility is wonderful, but sometimes a little certainty is helpful too, lol. Hang in there!

  3. Amy says:

    I favor the line, “Freedom’s just another word for nothing left to lose.” Same general idea, different words.

    There’s ALWAYS something left to lose, of course, but I like the idea.


    Leaving this dumb house behind, continuing to pay on it, and renting something in Denver. Who knows what’s ahead? But it’s kind of freeing in its own way.

    I think I’ll add Luna’s motto, too.

  4. Ugh…when it rains it pours right? I love your outlook however…and I do believe that you have to stay positive! I will say many prayers for your family….:)

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